10 years.

Some people with trust issue can't easily trust people. Somehow, one will have to believe at people in order to survive. It doesn't have to trust 100%, but just have some faith and trust people. Here's a story about my BFF. I didn't really trust him but sometimes, he is the only one that always be there for me. Since we were kid, he always prank me and that's why i don't really trust him. But when we grow older, year by year, he is the one who understand me & knows everything abt me. Sometime i feel bad that i'm not there by his side, to listen to his story or his lame joke. Since he is my childhood friend, we have a lot of memory tgt. Can't describe how valuable you are to me, but i always want u to know that i'm thankful to have you in my life :')

Choice

Camp just finished and i'll never forget it.1st year with them as a Camp Assistant (CA) is very very different. It's not  about you but it's all about youth. Look at the youth made a different makes me feel very happy and proud. Sometimes, we don't know one potential because they didn't show it. Different people, different background. One important thing that they got in the camp is supportive values. They support each other. They're always be a positive person. They're always care among each other. No way i can forget this camp. No way i can forget KYC. Because they've teach me a lot and make a vary difference in me. I feel more confident and I know that they're always ppl that will support me.

One last thing, this is the quote that i hold on during camp, "it's ur choice to make a difference".

Groupwork

      Bila nak cerita pasal groupwork ni, sebenarnya bukan tak suka kerja berkumpulan, cuma taksuka bila member takde responsibility nak siapkan kerja. Kalau kita avoid pun tak guna, sebab in future you're gonna face the same people jugak. Let say dalam situasi, kau pilih untuk avoid dari kerja kumpulan, tak rasa kau lari dari tanggungjawab ke? And at the end kerja tu tak siap jugak macam expectation kau. Apa kau buat? Macam mana nak selesaikan? Itulah, nak kata kat sini, orang macam ni (yang akan jumpa lagi pada masa depan) kalau bukan sama physically, sama mentally. One amazing friend said to me, "Kau akan jumpa jugak orang macam ni nanti, kalau kau lari sekarang, in future boleh jadi more worst."  What I learned dalam kerja berkumpulan ni, each person dalam group tu takboleh selfish.

      For the sake of peaceful in group, everyone has to be honest kot. Kerja kalau depan senyum belakang kutuk tak guna gak. Padahal satu group kan. Okay macam teruk sangat guna istilah kutuk. Dia tukar jadi topik perbualan yang barulah bila ada perasaan tak puas hati dengan groupmate sendiri.  Betul? Tapi bual dengan orang lain, dia takkan bual dengan orang yang bermasalah tu. Kita ambik positive side dari situasi ni. Sebenarnya mungkin dia nak bagi tahu yang dia tak suka cara tu, tapi takut member tersinggung mungkin. Tu wujud gossip tu. Responsibility and awareness are the most important thing beb. Takde dua ni, lingkup la kerja group tu. Mungkin kena cari solusi lain. Belum cukup dengan pandang kelemahan orang, mungkin refleksi diri tu salah satu solusi. Mana tahu kan?

The End, Assalamualaikum.

Feelings.

Humans are born with feelings. Seriously i've been stressed out lately bcs of my surrounding. I've been thinking so much. Idk it's how to settle all the problems or run from problems. I've tried the second choice; run away from problem. Trust me, it'll not workout. I became more stressful and feel like dying. If u think that ran from problem will make u feel ease, it'll not. Ive faced the consequences bcs running from problem, and i bet that isn't a good choice. I'm looking for solutions to all problem, but i didn't find any. Either the solutions are there or not, sometimes it's just me who don't wanna solve the puzzle. Cs i think i can't. That's why human can't survive alone, he or she needs someone to be there for him/her as his/her shoulder.