Messed up.

So many things to share for this time entry :)

     First of all, Alhamdulillah. I'm glad that I've been discharged from the hospital on Monday, 9th May 2k16. No more staying in the hospital pls after this haha. That's the lesson when you bought rollerblade without your mother permission, end up with broken arm and admitted to the hospital.

     Secondly, the feeling when you have to study for your final exam during your semester break is really like ...... (y'all know what) But just take this as a positive side. Quiet challenging tho cs when you study using your laptop and end up watching movie. What the... haha Whatever it is, maybe God wanna lemme think thoroughly what I've done during last semester. Yea i think last semester went through pretty well. It's just I've got less concentration on my studies and busy handling other things that less important than my studies. I didn't perform well for the other subject cs I failed to manage time. I rly need a time table in order to be better in time management. So, i've got abt 20 days to study for two paper and i've got to do something with that. I can't let my day past just like that fill up with movies, sleeping and do unnecessary stuff. C'mon, you'll regret when the result comes out. You'll ruin your future. So, study when you still have time cs time not gonna wait for you.

     Last but not least, I'm happy that my arm getting better day by day. I can move it but still limited to few movement only. Few days bfr, I was sad cs I thought that I can never be able to move my hand like normal. I gave up and cried. I was thinking abt so many things and I messed up. Mix feeling. Confused. Overthink. I'm really really really messed up. I don't know how to help myself that time. But today I know the reason why. I forgot my actual life. Too much daydreaming. I'm slave of God. My parents sacrificed a lot. Look up to their dream. Their wishes. Their pray. What I've done was I put hope to people that can't help me at all. Such waste of time thinking of the problem that is actually not a problem at all. But now I've stop mess with the thing and move on.

Fuh.  What a relief. The end.

Lesson learned

Being hospitalized almost two week is really really teach me about patience. I never been admitted to a hospital before, so this is my first time. Many things happen around. I learned many lessons here. I learned to be independent. Settle down all your stuff  using one hand is not easy, in addition, its limited.Here's an interesting thing to share. Since I admitted here, i can see that I have many people who love and care for me. They came and visited me, even though they are far from the hospital. That is what you get when you always care to every one around you.So after this, I will always care and love people around me. Try not to hurt anyone. Thank you to all of them especially my lovely amazing mother who always be there for me. My bestie who came visit me everytime he got free time, even though he is busy with his work. My chess buddy that always make me smile with his  lame joke. Nurses here are very nice, I cant imagine that I'm one of them. Woa, really cant imagine. Their patience and dedication in work really challenging. Other patients in my cubicle are friendly, and they're nice. Really appreciate them. I  love people that exist in my entire life. Nothing can express how much i love them. Thanks guys for the memories. I'll gone, but the memories stay.